go insane, go insane; throw some glitter, make it rain!

if you really knew me; youd know that ima very compassionate person. i like to be loved - not played, not torn down, and anything else like that. im determined. i chase after what i want. i wont give up easily, cause i know good things are worth fighting for. i put my whole heart into whatever i do; otherwise its a waste. i like to get what i want, and lately thats not the case. but, im used to fighting, and thats what ill continue to do until i get it. happiness is a direction, not a destination. i long for happiness. i will always have a smile on my face. im so sick of complainer. just be happy. i know thats easier said than done, but if you werent so negative, maybe things would be easier. i know life isnt easy, but hey- better get ready for the real world, because its no easier. get strong. be strong. stay strong.  

"let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday.."

i miss the past. i miss the person i used to be, but i know i cant change it now, so better make the best of it. being single is best for me.. at the moment. although i like having a boyfriend, i like not having to worry about getting mad if you hug another guy or such. if only youd look past the person i used to be, and the things i used to do- we could be together. i miss us. i miss  the car rides home, and the cute forehead kisses, and waking up and seeing you smiling at me, or arguing with you. i miss everything about us.. if only we could go back to that everything would be bettter. i miss you! .....well, lifes pretty good right now. itll get better. the end. ive talked enough for the day.